I look over towards my bed and see nice fresh sheets still with creases in them. I look back at the walls that I have been staring at for the last couple of hours wishing I could fall asleep without having nightmares. I cover my eyes with my hands to try to shield the bad thoughts entering in my mind. The silver and black clock on my dresser reads 2:00 am. Knowing I have to be at work and alert in five hours, I get my sleeping pills. With each pill I swallow I wonder; Is he not able to sleep at nights? Is he crying throughout the day? Is he pretending to friends and family that he is fine? But of course, I knew the answer was no to each question. He has no worries. He does not even think about raping me. He does not even think he did anything wrong. How can he get away with this? When the details are being replayed in my mind even in dreams.
The film DESCENT, brings up many good points. I could relate to the character, Maya. One of the points, I am pondering in this blog is, "When a man rapes a woman is it correct for the woman to get even by doing the same?"
SYNOPSIS OF DESCENT: Maya, played by Rosario Dawson, is a reserved and intelligent college student that gets raped by Jared, a college student also. Maya becomes distraught not talking to anyone about the rape. She shuts everyone out of her life and loses herself to a dark and gloomy world in which she experiments with drugs and sexual activity. She goes out for revenge on Jared by luring him to her apartment and allows her male friend to rape him.